Nina Bouraoui’s All Men Want to Know is an international bestseller by one of the best renowned contemporary novelists in France; it has been described by British favourite Sarah Waters as ‘intense, gorgeous, troubling, seductive.’
All Men Want to Know is marketed as a work of fiction, but its blurb states that it ‘traces Nina Bouraoui’s blissful childhood in Algeria, a wild, sun-soaked paradise… Her mother is French, her father Algerian; when racial tensions begin to surface in their neighbourhood, her mother suffers an unspeakable act of violence that forces the family to flee the country.’
In the 1980s, teenage Nina finds herself studying in Paris, whilst her parents have relocated to the Middle East; here, she spends four nights a week at the ‘legendary gay nightclub’, the women-only Katmandu. Here, she ‘watches women from the sidelines, afraid of her own desires, her sudden and intoxicating freedom.’ At this time, she also begins to explore the world of writing: ‘Words are the balm for my nights spent in search of something that eludes me, in search of love, of beauty remembered… When I begin to write, my first creation is a woman, alone and abused. I don’t realise I’m sketching a portrait of my mother.’
All Men Want to Know opens: ‘I wonder who in this world is newly in love, who has just been left and who has walked out without a word, who is happy and who sad, who is fearful and who forging confidently ahead, who is hoping for a brighter future. I cross over the Seine, I walk beside nameless men and women, mirror images of me.’
What I found most interesting in this book is the exploration Bouraoui gives to identity, both with regard to nationality and sexuality: ‘I stand between my two lands, two continents on either side of the sea.’ The narrator tells us: ‘I want to know who I am, what I am made of, what I can hope for; I trace the thread of my past back as far as it will take me, making my way through the mysteries that haunt me, hoping to unravel them.’ Bouraoui also explores the notion of independence and otherness through her protagonist: ‘I pray to the trees, the statues, the fountains, put my faith in the power of all this beauty watching over me. I’m leading a double life, following a path that’s strewn with thorns and nettles. I don’t know where it will lead me.’ She later comments: ‘My Algeria is a place of poetry, beyond reality. I’ve never been able to write about the massacres. I’m not entitled to, I can’t, I’m the Frenchwoman’s daughter.’
The narrative moves back and forth between 1980s Paris, where Nina hides her sexuality from others, and her childhood in Algiers: ‘I haven’t forgotten my roots… I can no longer recall the names of the streets, French names Arabized in the 1980s, nor the names of our neighbours or of the families that lived close by. But the shapes, colours, textures, all the details of the décor are still with me; a stage empty of actors, a city of ghosts.’
Bouraoui’s descriptions are visceral, particularly of the loaded history which Algeria endured in this period; one can almost feel, for example, the pain of her mother’s assault. After she comes into their apartment one day, ‘her dress torn, drops of spit in her hair, her skin streaked with grime’, Nina recalls: ‘We carry on as if nothing has happened. My mother washes herself, she takes her time, she scrubs her body to rub away the imprints of the fingers that have touched her.’ Her mother tells her impressionistic young daughter: ‘“I’ve learned to ignore things for which there are no words. Without a name, nothing can exist…”’.
The English translation has been well handled by Aneesa Abbas Higgins. The writing style is thoughtful and layered, and a lot of attention has been paid to introspection and detail. The prose is comprised of very short chapters, many of which are less than a page long. This is an approach I very much enjoy; the small slices of life prove very effective here.
All Men Want to Know feels very revealing. I loved the poetic way in which Nina tries to come to terms with all of the parts of herself. The entirety of this short novel feels very earnest, suffused with the protagonists’ greatest fears and observations: ‘I feel so small, a tiny speck in my bed, in this city, in this country, this continent. I’ve cast off my bindings, I no longer have a name, I’m ageless, homeless, with no past, no family; all I have is a future, a future that will plunge me into another life.’